Spontaneity

Spontaneity. I need more of it in my life. I need to live my life! This realization has just hit me as my teacher assigned us, (a bunch of senoritis infected seniors), to list 40 goals for our lives. My goals were nothing too out of the ordinary: graduate, get married, have babies, get a job... etc. (Of course, here i am reflecting about school again... but what else is there right now?)


Anyway, through looking at this i realized a few things.
1. all of my "goals" are actually my "plans" and I've discovered, so far, that sometimes if they don't work out i get upset because my plans are off track.
      -one shouldn't live their life this way (hence the need for spontaneity)
2. None of my goals were anything too adventurous... this is sad!
      -I need to just pick-up-and-go on a road trip! The only problem with this idea is that I'll never get around to doing it. I'll probably back  if i plan anything out. I don't know why this makes me so nervous?


SO, I'm trying to brainstorm ideas that might help me to live my life to the fullest. I need to think random... something i wouldn't normally do.. Dye my hair? Cut my hair? Leave and drive somewhere for the weekend? Write a book? I have no idea here; i want to make my life more interesting. I want to appreciate it for what it's worth and more.


I have to note that it was pretty spontaneous when i bought a Wii last week. But that could also be looked at as unintelligent... Oh well.


I'm tired of just working on homework all the time and not having the time or desire to do anything else. So starting today, I'm going to be conscious of my life and what's going on and I'm going to try to be more spontaneous.


Wish me luck!!
In deep thought,


Miss Hill